loneliness
If somebody paid me for every day carried out all alone, I already would grow rich... At school looking at myself in a mirror, I thought, "but clever...", now I think, " but beautiful...".
And I am sitting here absolutely alone for a midnight and deeply thinking: "Am I free or lonely?" Yes, I can do whatever I like, and go wherever I want, and nobody make me sad or nervous, and I always laugh at my friends crying because of their boyfriends. But on the other hand remains fear to spend the night alone and a silly envy if i see two enamoured. And still I am afraid to admit even to myself, that I want to be loved...
i know how you feel, even when i am with somebody i sometimes still feel very alone. I hate hanging around with my coupled friends, they bore the crap out of me (only because i'm not attached :-)) The upside is I get alot more work done now! I've been around the block many times and even when i think i've found someone who can take away that emptiness they still seem to disappoint. However don't feel jaded or unable to find what you are looking for, it will come when you least expect it. Just be open (but guard yourself) to those you might not expect to have common interests with. the search continues!......
